I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this, David. If it's any solace at all, there is hope and light on the other side of healing. It may seem impossible right now when it feels like you are missing a limb (which is an accurate description of what it feels like btw!), but eventually, it'll heal and better times will come. Wishing you all the best in this time of healing, and remember that you are not alone.